Negative Words

Negative Words

Dear Old Self,


You use to say, "sticks and stones may break my bones but WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME!" and then you would snap your fingers because you showed them something. Right?

But I remember when he called me out my name, you know that kind of hurt the first time. Then he did it again and it also hurt the second time. Then it was so often that I became numb to it.

Then I noticed one day I was changing. I let people say whatever they wanted. Then I started saying it to myself. When I messed up on that project I couldn't even catch it I said "you're so STUPID, you are NOT CAPABLE, NOT WORTHY, NOT DESERVING, can't get ANYTHING RIGHT,........" and all the time these NEGATIVE words became a part of my lovely language I use to have.

I started to realize that WORDS PLANT SEEDS. That what I said created situations for me. Good and BAD ones.

I couldn't understand why so many things were going on and going the opposite of what I was hoping for.

Then one day, its funny how it takes only ONE DAY, I heard that LIFE and DEATH lies in the power of my own words.

Then I saw why when I said I was NOT DESERVING I DID NOT GET  WHAT I HOPED FOR!

THEN I saw why when I SAID I was not WORTHY, I ended in UNHEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS

Then I saw WHY when I SAID I COULDN'T, I didn't.......

I was ashamed....

You told me it was NO BIG DEAL, I hoped for it and that was all necessary, what can words change.

You were right it was not a BIG DEAL that I HOPED for change, but the people around me were SAYING the opposite of what I was HOPING for and I started to SAY the SAME WORDS.

Just like a planting of an APPLE seed bears an APPLE, the same way NEGATIVE WORDS are SEEDS and bear the fruit that it is... NEGATIVITY.

AND that is WHY we BROKE UP........

it took only ONE DAY......AND ONE DAY she flew.........

.......when she let go of negative words, and people who spoke them.


Love,
A Diamond With Wings