Dear Old Self,
The other day I wrote on a piece of paper that I wanted freedom and more out of life. I remember thinking that day that I made so many mistakes I would not be capable of doing those things. It was like I was paying for every mistake that I made in my life and I might a well just lay down and take the way theses situations are. My money didn't grow. Actually I think another bill came through that day, that I did not have enough to take care of it. Then the relationship was terrible. We were fighting day in and day out. I prayed a whole lot, but it seemed like it got worse and worse. I was too embarrassed to share what was going on. I was not happy. I just wanted to be free of all of it.
One day as I was at a stop light, I saw a bird fly across the sky. I remember saying "If only I can just fly away freely like that bird." Well Old Self, I remembered a saying that I heard a long time ago, that if God took care of the fowl of the air, what little is it for me to think of myself that He would not take care of me?
I was reminded who I was. I did not have to be bound like a bird in a cage to unhappiness, financial struggles, past mistakes. I was free, I just did not open the lock to the cage and step out. So I thought new thoughts because as a man thinketh so is he. I started saying out loud, "I AM FREE," "MY MONEY IS FREE," "MY MIND IS FREE," I AM NOT AFRAID OF WHAT IS AHEAD." I started believing it.
Now, don't get to arrogant Old Self, there were times you tried to convince me to stay where I was and that I may fall, because I did not know how to fly. But I hope you remember that I reminded you that I knew that I fell before in my past and got back up, but there is no guarantee that if I stayed here, I will even get up. It was just too deep.
I was reminded of who I am........
and that is why we broke up......
Love,
A Diamond with Wings
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