People Will Keep You Bound

People Will Keep You Bound:

Dear Old Self,

I remember like it was yesterday that fight me and her had. We said some of the most hurtful things. I am not sure if it was a misunderstanding or if actually I had done something wrong. I truly wanted the best for her and our friendship. But there was always something deep inside of me that let me know that she was not happy. I saw that day coming. It was like I was living a dream I had.

I never knew 2 friends that had known each other for years, could say the meanest things in the world.  Old Self, that was a fight. We made up and after a few months maybe even years of not talking I wanted to see how she was doing.

Well, I hoped for it to go well and it didn't. Old self, you know me, this time I would've called her all types of names, dug deep and went low to be sure she felt the hurt that I felt as she betrayed my trust, loyalty, and friendship.

This day I turned the other cheek and I said good bye to a dead friendship that was hurting me in my soul. People CANNOT give you what they don't have.

There was always unrest in our friendship, but when I needed someone to talk to about those bad situations, I called her. I did not know then, that real friends are there through the good and the bad. I can share the deepest secrets good and bad with that friend at anytime. This was not the case with her.

Instead of doing the old things I would do, that I thought was protecting me, I decided to just say good bye and wish her well.

I remember when I did that, she was confused. Confused that I did not give the reaction that I would have given before, confused that I did not cuss her out, confused, that I did not have anything evil to say, she was confused and I thought I was too at first.......

Then I knew that I grew up, That is why I had to break up with you......because the Old Self would have condoned me doing all of these things.

It really was just making me unhappy and tearing me down...... Since I was flying now, I couldn't be subjected to go back to where I was before....

We had to break up so I could be free of unhealthy friendships that did not want to see me be better, that only liked me when it was conducive to them, that only took and never gave.........

And that's why we broke up..........New friendship were waiting and there was no room for them because the toxins were there.

And one day she flew........

Love,
A Diamond With Wings